Wednesday, August 22, 2012

LITERAL 02 "What gets you in the mood to write?"


L.I.T.E.R.A.L. is a weekly blog meme for authors hosted at Indie Books, created to serve as a support group for participants of the Author at Once workshops.  L.I.T.E.R.A.L. welcomes all writers (from anywhere in the world) who’d like to weigh in on the topics!

Here's number two--


Q. Now let’s share how we get things done. What gets you in the mood to write? Is it a deadline, a prize, a pushy editor? Can you recall your most productive writing session ever? What triggered it?

It shouldn't solely be love, or anger, sadness, fear or any of the usual emotions. They're great motivators, but when they ebb, you're left stranded up sh!t creek without a paddle. Starting is easy, especially when you're caught up in the power of the anger in your belly, or when you're high on love. It's when you decide that you want to write at a level better than people ululating out of their pens, that your inner critic is born, wears its mother's clothes, acquires a knife, and brutally murders your creative impulse in the shower. Competent writers allow their feelings to get the ball rolling and keep their inner critics leashed until there's enough on the page to properly mine for themes, dialogue, good lines and (above all) sense. Good writers know how to manage their time, and the ebb and flow of inspiration, so that they remain productive regardless of how they feel.

Don't look at me-- I've yet to get that "Good Writer" part down pat.


Primum Mobile 

I generally need a reason to write. There has to be some sort of end--

to catalogue your thoughts for future study and critique, perhaps; 
to engage in written scream therapy; 
to explore a theme, or aspect of what you're feeling or experiencing; 
to write about the same topic differently, (maybe condense your love song as a haiku); 

or else the writing need not be attempted in the first place. You cannot write aimlessly-- that is, write without a goal and write without refining the work--  and expect an audience to respect the writing. That's how kids come up with clumsy high school love poetry, and how local Catholic bishops churn out crass hyperbolic ramblings against teaching Rizal or family planning advocacy.  


My Most Productive Session(s)

When I was high on love, I had many of these. I'd start with a song or poem in the morning, come back to it around lunch, and have that sucker polished by 3:00 p.m. Some of the writing still had problems-- at least, one of the following: clashing themes, murky images, problems with rhythm, or making the word count fit some sort of meter. Still, I was very prolific, writing regardless of the emotion that came as a consequence of my clumsily loving someone--joy, sadness, anger, longing.

The key to each session was almost always a woman. That, and Microsoft Word. I'd rush home to write about her eyes (her "wells of thought") or her ("chestnut") hair. On other days, I'd write about how we interacted on campus or at that last Sci-Fi Fan Club meeting. I'd write about her clothes, comparing them to a landscape seen from thousands of feet in the air-- how it would be glorious to fall into them, to break myself on the topography of her skin.

Only a few of these courtships ended well. But when they ended badly, they generally brought about a slew of new writing that explored what it was like to watch the lady swooning in the arms of another man. Or perhaps what being a tree must be like--  you grow roots by her door, waiting for her with flowers (or a token of goodbye) in your hands.


Yes, But What Motivates You To Write Today?


To compel myself to write, I ask myself this question: "What would it be like to...?" Then the ideas start coming and I have to restrain Norman "Critic" Bates while he ogles the creative impulse in the shower. Time enough for the knife, later.      


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Wednesday, August 15, 2012

LITERAL 01 "Have You Been Published?"


(L.I.T.E.R.A.L. is a weekly blog meme for authors hosted at Indie Books, created to serve as a support group for participants of the Author at Once workshops.  L.I.T.E.R.A.L. welcomes all writers (from anywhere in the world) who’d like to weigh in on the topics!)

Here's the first one--

Q. Has your book/story/epic been published? If yes, how was the experience, and where can we buy your book? If no (or not yet), why the delay? Is there anything you know you should be doing to make it happen?

Strictly speaking, yes, I have been published. Likely, so have you. Published plenty of times, if you keep a blog or say something regularly on Facebook or Twitter. I can say with a straight face that I've been published, in that I can slap a street thug on the back of the head with a copy of the hardcover anthology to which that one poem belongs. If said thug had a taste for foreign-made status symbols, he'd be in luck: my poem was published in the 'States.

Sadly, I doubt you'll still find it in print, as I can no longer find any trace of the --and I would learn about these people painfully-- infamous vanity publisher, The International Library of Poetry. The elation I felt at being "distinguished" by these people, being invited to participate in one of their annual poetry conventions in Washington, D.C. evaporated when, after I had purchased my copy of that year's poetry compilation, I  found out that my piece stood shoulder-to-shoulder with ham-handed high school verse.[1]

I've tried tracking it down. The ISBN (0-7951-5135-7) apparently belongs to more than one body of work.

Yes, there's a happy ending in this story. I have a beautifully bound hardcover book that will likely last a couple of generations. I can safely claim that I am "Published, In Hardcover, In the 'States." I won't need to grab my knives or my arnis sticks in case some nutjob tries a home invasion. I can literally throw the book at him, and beat him to death with poetry.  


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[1]  Everyone, who submitted entries for their poetry contests were sent the same letters, the same citations, the same  invitations to participate in the D.C. conventions as "semi-finalists."  Amid many earnest, if unrefined, attempts of writing well under the restraints of some sort of meter, were occasional flashes of brilliance. I wasn't alone, but this solidarity was not comforting.            

[2] I no longer remember how much that one copy cost my mother to have delivered to our door. I do remember the humiliation of being denied a US visa, one for every convention I tried to get to. .

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Profit Motive

I'll drop any pretense of BS and level with you, dear single reader.

I feel that my little business has gone to pot, or at least, that it's been progressing at the speed of molasses. For various reasons, I have been missing opportunities to schmooze-- that is, to make acquaintances, friends  and business contacts who could potentially bring in the funds I need for getting the business back on track. I have been missing out on videographer assignments that could have put me that much more securely on the goddamned map and increased my value to the teevee people I work for.[1][2]

God knows I need supplies for the copier, a new laminator, and likely a new computer to boot. I need funds for personal food, new clothes and a satisfying visit to the doctor. You know, one where I won't have to go home knowing absolutely nothing about the causes behind the symptoms I'm feeling, for lack of very liquid funds that can be used --without question or quibble-- for very extensive, expensive tests. I have a health card whose terms seem so Byzantine that I'm afraid of spending too much time reading them, let alone using the card itself. Then there's social security to pay for, due on the last day of this coming September. I haven't bought and assembled a model kit in two years. Every time I feel a pressure on my neck or on my temples, I can't shake the feeling that I'm going to die really horribly, really soon.    

Days like this, I want to be a US Republican and howl at an unjust tax system and a large bureaucratic government hell-bent on taxing and regulating me to death. Please don't quote me on that.

So what does all this have to do with my moribund Lit blog?

I'm considering making changes and churning out content more regularly. No, the blog will not be monetized, but every time I write about writing, it'll show up here, on the off-chance that it helps someone out there and that it helps to send--yes, opportunities for schmoozing-- my way.[3] The stories, the poems will still be put up here, as well as on my deviantArt account and other venues, but I aim to be more selective of what goes here, since I may have to commercially publish that content one day, hopefully soon.

Anyone whose spoken with me at length will be acquainted with my disillusionment with writing, as it keeps failing the acid test for me-- If it doesn't quickly and reliably get you a roof over your head, food on your table and a woman in your bed[4], then you shouldn't be dependent on it for a living. Why, then, the change of heart?

Every time I feel a pressure on my neck or on my temples, I can't shake the feeling that I'm going to die really horribly, really soon.

That, and the hope that the people at Author at Once have actually managed to inspire in me. Check them out, if you feel like trying your hand as an independent author, or even if you feel like you could use something worthwhile to do with your time.

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[1] One feels inclined to partially blame inclement weather and unexpected death, but no one, no one,  likes a whiner. The moment you express yourself along the lines of themes that don't involve some kind of victory, apparently, you become a whiner.

[2] However strongly you shout that you are an agent who can work independently of others' opinions of you, those opinions are still major determinants of your success, otherwise advertising is really a billion- dollar waste of money.        

[3] I'm sorry: one of the changes that has come over me, since my recent discovery that Tina Turner was right all along when she sang about love in 1984, was that I've picked up an acquisitive streak that is totally at odds with my generally hippie personality. I've realized that I have to care about wealth, and to that end,  to keep schmoozing if I don't want to spend the rest of my productive years working in a call center, or as an indentured slave for Korean English language training centers looking for quality educators on the cheap.

[4] I would have been happy if it had just accomplished just one of those things.